Saturday, August 24, 2013
My faucet of care turned on the faucet of tears : /
I am not sure I liked this technique at the moment. Maybe another day I would like to come back and retouch on this. I could be me, I have been feeling somewhat emotional the last week. It did not help that I thought about my dad when asked to think about somebody that I love dearly. My dad is not in the best of health at the moment and it breaks my heart into a million pieces. I thought about him, how much I love him, how much he loves his family. I thought about much he loves Dawson (my son) and doing things with him and spending time with his extended family and helping others. How much it misses doing all the things he loves because he does not feel able. I thought about how I want to take away his illness, pain and sadness and make him well again. I thought about how much pain he has to endure with every shot and blood draw, how he almost cringes when it is time to eat because everything has lost its flavor or has a bad taste in his mouth. However, I do feel that this is a great exercise and practice and I can almost feel a difference with one practice. I wish I could encourage others to try this because I see this being very helpful to many people. It is like as Dacher stated in our book, "cross-training" the mind. We can work out our physical bodies for an hour or more a day and we need to exercise our minds for an hour or so daily too because exercise adds up. These exercises decrease stress and can improve relationships.
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I can sympathize with you. Having lost my mother not that long ago and having two young kids it is rough to actually sit quietly and let my mind go to those places, I know that it is helpful and can help to truly heal to do so, but it is difficult. I do believe though that by practicing these exercises, practicing Loving-Kindness we can help alleviate some pain from those we focus on. I am sure your dad can feel your gentle and comforting thoughts washing over him and providing a certain comfort.
ReplyDeleteI think you are correct, people see to take the time to exercise their bodies but their mind/spirit get easily neglected. I wonder if people's minds were better situated if there would be better focus on our bodies and overall health.
Warmly,
Christine M. Dixon
Sarah,
ReplyDeleteThis exercise was difficult for me also, and it did bring forth emotions that were very surprising to me. It made me cry, realize the blessings I do have in my life and made me come to an understanding that I have much to work on within myself that I thought was already in an okay state. I hope this exercise actually brought you closer to your father and maybe gave you a deeper understanding and compassion for how he feels, although it sounds like you are already extremely close to your father. what a blessing that is, to both of you.
I am not good at sharing my personal life, but please know that I do understand and my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Enjoy every good moment you have...those are the ones remembered...
Julie C.
Sarah,
ReplyDeleteWhat a heartfelt post...I can also feel your pain as my father has been given only 6 months. He lives in Michigan, and the last time he visited he had to leave early due to illness. Maybe you're holding in feelings that need to be released?..I know I do. I was Daddy's little girl all my life. My heart is with you in my extended circle.
Regards,
Jill Gazelle
This practice can be either a positive or negative response for people. I did find moments in the exercise to be a bit uncomfortable and uncertain feelings. In the realization process of where you are at in life, starts the healing process if need be. Its hard to see the ones we love suffering. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Cherish the moments you (and your son) have with your dad, and try not to focus on the things you can't change, focus on showing him how much he means to you...
ReplyDeleteI will continue to do this exercise for the sake of my sister. I know her circumstances are not as bad as your dad and I am sorry to hear about your dad. But if we can help our loves one though these type of meditation, then why not. My sister has tried to conceive many times and has fail miserably which bring her to depression. I thought if I can meditate to lift the stress of trying to get pregnant and help her to calm herself and relaxed and maybe it will happen. These meditations not only helps us to connect with our loved ones and each other, but to also help them and ourselves. that is great.
ReplyDeleteSarah, I can definitely relate to your post this week. I am sorry to hear about your father. From your description, it sounds like your father has cancer just like mine. We are going through the same things such as loss of appetite, weight loss and blood testing. It is heartbreaking to see such a strong man go through this. I need to revisit this exercise to help cope with these feelings.
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